138: Still Life with Aspirin

138: Still Life with Aspirin

138: Still Life with Aspirin

Still Life with Aspirin
by Lucie Brock-Broido

There she was, the mother of me, like a lit plinth,
Heavenly, though I was reared to find this kind

Of visitation impractical; she was an unbearable detail
Of the supreme celestial map,

Of which I had been taught that there was
No such thing. Stevens wrote that

For a poem to be true, it must come "from an Ever."
If you don't fathom that, then you should not be reading this.

I was there, at Ever, & it was mostly poignant and it was cruel.
It was a subjunctive place where touch was so particular it hurt

Like a veterinarian's deep kiss, like a Jerusalem somewhere
Between fancy & imagination. I was the procuress

And the gallowglass guarding the history and turf of everything
Intimate. What word would you use to describe me now.

Imperishable? Imperishable. The stars
Appear every night in the sky. All is not well.

All Deepens. V. told me that. All deepens, which is
To say—nothing—like a mild analgesic, which is to say everything

Like Lear's three girls. Which is to say:
All of my objects have lost their correlative states

And you want to know why. Because things are just
Things now, just as everyone said they would be.

When I was there, at Ever, by the way,
I was an ascetic & quite vernacular. The land there

Was all as peaceful as an aspirin, as the West Bank
Is an eternal circle of chalk and bruise and war.

You did not dream I held political
Ideals, did you. You should not be reading this & are.

Remember me in the blowsy humid corridors
Beneath the Wailing Wall, most sacred place of all;

Remember me: wishing, specific, marooned, as
One who knew exactly what the Ever was & is, a velvet school

Of courtesan, a gallows bird, all deep, all deepening.

"Still Life with Aspirin," from TROUBLE IN MIND by Lucie Brock-Broido. Copyright © 2005 by Lucie Brock-Broido. Used by permission of the poet's estate.